last update for the year!
been to lazy to jot anything down recently. so yea, photolog time!
ktv session for the holidays! at least i went once, so it's not THAT bad. had great fun singing to our hearts' content. big shoutout to my dear kherray: thanks for your help! love ya, bestie. =)
random clubbing at the SIM pageant, when none of us are from that school. congrats to JUSTIN for winning! i knew it la. =))) but arrived too late to catch ya or capture any photos. dang. drank to our hearts content, and once again, a night proving that company matters during clubbing much more than the crowd. cheers!
mj with the girls then heading down to good ol' vino vino for ayu's birthday! =)) small affair with the same faces, but comfy and toned down fun nonetheless. ayu is really getting better at choosing wines. yummy!
annual christmas party at shunjuu! after a long day of mj and buffet dinner, i rushed down to meet up with dearest yumi and the rest of the long-time-no-see people! feels soooo happy to be partying with them again. reminds me so much of how i enjoyed working there so much. i guess when you feel satisfied working at a place, the things you do becomes better and better. probably why so many customers remember me from this place. job satisfaction people, job satisfaction!
met up with amandaaaaaa and then off we head to butter! the pooh and friends on a sleigh outside the club is total cuteness, and strangely befitting the place. i have no idea why sean looks so stoned all the time. (more about that later) no pictures after this cause it was too stuffy inside for any! ew to sweat and
radiating body heat. -.-
we saw each other less than 8 hours later at amanda's for her annual lunch party. 4 kings is the best game to play in a room of people whom you see once a year, and yet makes people merry enough to drink and laze comfortably. stoned sean, as mentioned, drank alot dur to the reaction rules. but lucky him always get the wild card to get him out of trouble! veron and me were the last king once each so everything became blur for a while after that. amazing how we could still play jenga. haha. bobby, alex and essy came for a while and then it's off for movies and dinner!
can you see how tired i was? caught yes man and it was GOOD! the seminar reminds me strangely of organised religions. subtly mocking, but yet amusing.
time to get ready for another night of partying. kinda tired and irritable but i hope all the fun later will take these all away. sooo...
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it feels strange to be so close, yet so distant to someone at the same time. knowing all that is happening but yet not being able to do something about it is kinda frustrating. all i want to do is to give you one big hug, and tell you it's all going to be okay, yet i know doing so will not help matters, and you will see right through it. no matter what i do, you would probably much rather the hug come from her. so i can only stand here and watch, listen and be there, hoping one day, it would turn out fine for you. i guess at least you will feel better saying it all out than keeping it all in.
i spent time trying to make it okay again, although i have absolutely no idea what happened. even now, it feels weird not having you around. people talk about us and i have no idea how to respond, other than giving a smile and hope no one asks me anything. but i guess i am tired. tired of everything, and so i just stopped mustering energy to make things right again. for a while, i admit, i was pissed, wondering why i feel like i'm grovelling when i don't even know what's wrong. but that is of my own accord, and i blame no one for it. i'm just... tired? and i see you've found someone who is willing to be what i was, and much more. so all the best to you. i know things that i do upsets you sometimes, and same goes to you. but i never thought it will dwindle to this. i really thought i will end up taking care of your kids for you, and they will end up playing together at a corner while we have high tea or sunday brunch. but that will not happen after all, i guess. i guess i don't matter as much as i thought i do, to you. sorry for being full of myself then.
Labels: birthday, clubbing, food, movies, outing, rants
